I saw a quote yesterday that read, “How you live your day to day life is a direct reflection of your priorities.” At first I was like, well obviously. And then I thought about it a little longer and realized how prominent of a quote that is in my life right now. Think about that for a second.
How you live your day to day life is a direct reflection of your priorities.
I’ve been struggling with priorities lately. Whether to let myself nap on the couch guilt free at night or finish those last couple to-do’s in my inbox. Whether to take another wedding inquiry during a busy month or pass up the money for more time with our future baby. Whether to double book more wedding weekends to keep my assistants busy or do more with less. Whether to save for a house or a studio first.
I’ll be honest, it’s been much harder than I thought to balance the fears and excitement of having a baby while continuing to pursue Created Lovely. Up until now, Created Lovely has been my baby. Royce and I’s relationship has always been our top priority, but I can say with absolute certainty that our businesses have taken precedent in the majority of our life decisions. There’s a reason why instead of buying our first house this year, our money went to hiring assistants. There’s a reason why we’ve left our closest friends and family in different cities to be in Kelowna. And there’s a reason why no matter what vacation or date night we’re on that somehow we’re still talking about our businesses. Owning Created Lovely isn’t something I “fell into” or a business to make me money in the meantime, it feels like an extension of myself. Now that we have a baby on the way, finding a balance between wanting to be a loving and involved mom and keep Created Lovely flourishing, which is this beautiful extension of who I am, is all really difficult to process.
I don’t want my clients to feel “second” even though they will be and should be. I don’t want it to feel that way on their end though. And selfishly, I don’t want to feel second in my own life. I don’t want lose my drive or commitment to Created Lovely as I’ve spent so much time and energy creating a business that allows me to be me. That scares me the most, that I’ll hold our little Baby Sihlis and not even want to work anymore. I love him/her so much already I can’t even imagine how difficult some days of working over being a mom are going to be. So I guess I’m in for some really big adjustments as I learn how to be a mom and an entrepreneur and make it all work.
For any of you out there making it work, if you have any book suggestions or advice or struggles to share that would be amazing! Even small ways that you make being a working mom work for you is so helpful to me at this time. And maybe it’ll ease this feeling of the unknown I’ve got happening.
Wishing you all a lovely week!