It is extremely difficult to be honest when it comes to business. It’s not “just” business, it’s your life. The day you choose to start a business that you want to make a full-time career is the day you put it all on the line. And this year has been hard. Really, really, really hard. There are days where I have serious doubts. I’m not tooting my own horn but I’m 100% sure I could have climbed the corporate ladder and done something else with my life where I’d be making a lot more money with benefits than I am right now. So easily I forget how much I hated working for other people. So easily I forget dragging myself out of bed to go to a job that didn’t excite me. So easily I forget that that wasn’t what I was meant to do.
But some days I just want business to be easy. I want to know what I’m doing all the time. I want to feel job security and know how much money I’m making that month. I want to go to work and feel social because I actually have coworkers to talk to about how their weekend went. I want to have a weekend. I want to buy work clothes and actually wear them 5 days a week. I want to be told I’m doing a good job by my boss. I want to get promoted. I want to get excited about a job opportunity or internship and apply for it. Some days I just want all of it. Every little piece of working for someone else.
I started my own business when I was 20 while finishing my event management diploma. I ran my business part-time for 3 years while finishing my Bachelor of Tourism Management then took it full-time this year after getting married and moving to the Okanagan. I wish someone would have told me how hard it was going to be. And that there would be countless days where I cried out of frustration, stressed about money, worried about success, faced a painstaking amount of jealousy, and just didn’t believe in myself. I wish someone would have told me that running your business is Nothing like what you see on Facebook and instagram. No one posts the hard stuff. No one wants to admit that some times it’s not fun. And being an entrepreneur is the furthest thing from the easy route– it just appears that way to everyone else because the people doing it love their jobs.
And that’s what led me to this. I love my job. I know very few people that can say that and as I get older I can imagine I’m going to hear it less and less. I made the right decision and every hard day is worth it but today I’m wishing for lunch with my coworkers. Time to expand the Created Lovely team.
Time to put my head down and just keep swimming. I love my business. I love my clients. I love that it’s 2:45pm in the afternoon and I’m at home blogging. Because I can! I love being the owner of Created Lovely Events. And it’s okay that it’s not easy, that’s what makes success that much sweeter.